Switchin' the positions for you

Let me start by quoting a song by Ariana Grande "Positions"

Switchin' the positions for you
Cookin' in the kitchen and I'm in the bedroom
I'm in the Olympics, way I'm jumpin' through hoops
Know my love infinite, nothin' I wouldn't do
That I won't do, switchin' for you

Mary as a M or sub

My friend May is an M when she and her boyfriend have BDSM sessions. He had tried to get her to try to switch once in a while. She wanted to give it a try but failed. She feels very hard to dominate anyone but herself. She has always been an obedient good girl. All her life, She always waited for the instructions of her parents, coworkers, other family members and tries her best not to reject them. She was asked not to cry and be a good sister when she was still a child. When her parents were at work, she was tasked to look after her baby brother. She has never ordered her peers at work for anything. Most of the time, she would rather do the tasks herself than asking others to do it.

The boyfriend/ Dom asked her to switch positions

Her boyfriend is a different type. He is as carefree as you can imagine. He can always come up with new ideas for where to go, what to do , and how to have fun. And he has no qualms for asking other people to go along with him. They had a happy dom/sub relationship for the most part. Recently, he has brought up the idea to switch positions between them and he would like her to dominate him for a change.

She quickly agreed without thinking about it. That is how she is, if the request is within reason, she will agree to it first and think about how to do the tasks later. But it had dawned on her that she has no idea where to start and the thought of being the dominant one throughout the whole scene actually made her sweat in fear. That is such a difficult position for her that she is not at all comfortable.

It is not as easy as it sounds  

But she is not ready to tell him no yet. So whenever he asked, she always finds something to say to dodge the question. She would say that she is not feeling well, or work is busy or they need more tools to use for play.  

He did not push her hard on this issue. But it seems that things are not going well between them.